what i want.

a man who has good qualities and family values

a man who is an intellect at times but also can speak with ease and not have to analyze every little thing

a man i find attractive

a man who appreciates good art,music and culture (good by my defnition ideally)

and me with all my faults, and aspirations.

i must admit i am rather hesitant to attempt any online blog, for one because seeing my history of journal keeping i hardly keep up or follow through on one entire journal… i forget about it and move on to the next one… after a certain amount of time has passed i feel that the old journal is finished and i must find a new and special journal to continue my thoughts in.  i am also hesitant because i am afraid if i did start writing on here i would write less and less in pen and pen must not be forgotten… letters and handwriting are personal… they may contain mistakes, tear drops, coffee stains or hints of perfume things that make it relate to the person who wrote it.. no two handwritings will ever be exactly alike… on here however we get something so impersonal with our generic times or arial types  everything is automatically spaced for us… its all dictated by a bunch of numbers… well you get the idea.